Frustrations

It's been a tough week and sometimes I get so frustrated with myself. I am constantly my own worse enemy. I have made it all too easy to not do what I am supposed to do or at least what I should do. I am making a promise to myself tonight that I will do better this week. I will put in the effort in both the gym and with my eating to do a better job. It is far too easy to be lazy but I want to be better than I am. I want to have more energy, I want to feel better.

This journey was never about how my body looked and it still isn't about that. I want to be stronger, to be healthier, and to be a better role model for Maddie. If I am to lose weight in the process than that is fine, if I lose inches and gain muscle all the better, but I was ok with my body prior to this.

What I wanted to do during this journey was to prove to myself that I could do it. I could become stronger and healthier and to stop making those same mistakes in and out each day. It's hard I won't lie and sometimes I give in and take the lazy route and this week I have taken the lazy route one too many times. But I promise to be better. I don't promise to be perfect but I promise to try harder mostly for myself but also for my family. This is a journey after all and there will be stops. I'm hoping this week was only a small reroute and the rest of the journey will be smoother. Time will tell.

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